When I flew into New York early Sunday morning, I knew. I just knew. This is where I am supposed to be. In this city, at this moment. Nothing was more clear.
I had just gotten back from a week in California where everything was seemingly perfect but it didn’t feel like home to me. I never expected that. New York has always been a temporary place for me but within the past year, it’s completely changed. I don’t know if its because my circle of friends has grown, my relationships have deepened, I’ve found a job that fits me. It’s probably a sum of all those parts. But now, when I get back to my cozy little apartment in Manhattan, I breathe a sigh of relief.
This is what it is like to be happy. To be settled in the only way I know how.
To laugh with friends who just get it, so hard that your sides actually hurt the next morning. To go out and meet tall, dark handsome strangers and strike up rather interesting conversations while sharing hot toddies. To devour endless cups of coffee and pastries with friends. To run the streets of Manhattan early in the almost eerily quiet morning. To walk into a job that leaves you challenged, engaged and yes, sometimes overwhelmed. To go back to your hometown and be around the people who know you the best and help you steer you on the right path. To reminisce with your high school guy friends and remember what it was like to be around boys who knew you at your most nerdy moments and still love them to pieces because you’ve all grown up together. To have a family who truly support everything you do.
I should also mention December has been and will always be my favorite month of the year. Not just because it is all about the holidays and it is my birthday month, but because this time of the year is quite literally the most fun and festive of the year. Plus, it’s my birthday month. Did I already mention that? Because it’s true. And I have a feeling this month is going to be the best because it already has been so much fun and it’s only December 1.
Hold on to your hats, kids. It’s going to get crazy.